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In early 1978 An left and all but disappeared in London

In that year and the following I embedded the importance of trees. I went to London hopefully for some reconciliation with An at least so I could see my two sons. This turned out to be fruitless, I only saw Tiriel and Jiva three times and An was obviously too disturbed to let me near her or them.

I lived through the winter as I had been accustomed in wearing only unbleached linen and wearing no shoes. I would sit at night under a poncho I had made in 1972 with An and never use electricity or wood etc. for heating.

I had decided that the universe was not for burning and I would just have to toughen up and sit out the winter. Eventually I would fall asleep.

After a fruitless year and a half of waiting to An to make some allowances on my seeing Tiriel and Jiva I decided that I should go somewhere warmer for a while and get out of An's hair, maybe then she would be more relaxed.

I have saved £1504 pounds and thought I would cycle off to Europe,maybe Africa and could find or help set up a community, which may be acceptable to An and she could bring herself to live near me without the threat of me wanting to renew our relationship.

All this was a miserable failure, but after another year and a half on my own, my credentials of being fruitarian, bound to the air and not the killing fire the spiritual nature of abstaining from the act of destruction was a corner stone of my lifestyle.