Given the rain and subsquent time spent in shelter i spent some considerable time dwelling on priorities. People, places and time, but in finding comfort the past has to find it's place in the present if there is to be any future comfort.

I wondered about external influences and tried to correate momentous events I've had with planetary alignments. I know a few numeric cycles and Jupiter and Saturn are the most prominent dud to their lenght and that each happens only a handfull of times for the average person.

I did not come to any clear correallation but as it's the solstice i thought i would need to align at least three planets and earth, so i dozed of listening to esoteric lyrics and an ehausted mind.

So what surpfise to aw\ke to dah the 18th and finc the news of such an alignment is immenent.

"21st Dec 2020"

See https://www.bbc.co.uk/news/science-environment-55364664

It appears that Jupiter and Saturn are to align not just in cosmic direction but in elevation too, from the Earth I must add but what really marks this event is that it occurs on the winter solstice 21 Dec 2020

I do not have more details of the cross overs nor could more than one crossover ever happen from a third point of view.

So this will not be an earthly awakening but an opportunity to tune in to your awareness and hopefully see that mind can logically aware of debris of stellar matter, so providing notification that conciousness is not Earth bound.

Can't save the planet can't save myself, nor stop other from consuming nor stop myself, so I'd rather not point a finger at you but turn my hand to what I do. For the only difference I can make is to limit my own intake.

And now I dwell alone and upon the land do walk I have space to think and much less reason to talk. But if I were to say to you, in whisper or a top the trees do shout hear me clear I do not jest do you really want to be a guest. Come take from this world what you must and see the death that follows you to nowt but an earthly grave.

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The mind sees little that's true when all is conjured from scraps of light and sound. And all of bthe day is bhere for all to see and he mine shall have the night to build and destroy all forms of things and noght, for what shall become of the I that doesn not see but gives direction to the sea of rain would that the eyes see nothing so plain.

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I and I were walking towards a mountain, but we are so slow that the mountain bends to meet us and in doing so leaves a hole in the sky where the rain gets in. But this is no ordinary rain it is the dew of life illuminated by photons and it falls with a heavy heart. The falling dew dissolves the fear of the future and clears a space for feelings.

I note differing arguments that can be heated due due interpretation and whereas I make the following assertions they are only to assert my use of the English language to communicate logic and feelings.

I will forego pre-birth except to say that at birth warmth is the most essential item and awareness of this new environment. After warmth, fluid is the next sensual awareness and in most animals that may come from the previous hosts and in mammals the mammary glands.
The awareness of smell although present at birth is soon to be associated with warmth and fluid, sweet at that and so to taste.

These early awarenesses are not a temporary issue, with the associated sound there follows a focus of sight. And so we have the evolvement of awareness via the senses.

It take some time to aggregate sensory awareness to enable the acquisition of those fundamentals of warmth and fluid.

Logic now plays it's part and is used with the other four senses mentioned to sustain the warmth a and fluid, touch is the an intermediary as it senses the essentials directly without logic having to assess the value of the object now experienced.

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Later along the road of consumerism there is a realisation that resources are not just limited by their existence but on increasing effort as competition increases and personal intellectual and physical diminish. Along this road of realisation there is a profound acknowledgment of logic and a persons ability to use it, invariably to acquire a stable store of the essentials. However it cannot go unnoticed that logic itself is not a consumer, 2 plus 2 may be counted as four but the 2 and 2 still exist.

Counting is logic applied to the future, a frail resource, the future. Most futures imagined are just replicas of past desires, not really anything new. The addiction of using the mind to ensure future comforts degrades the minds ability to be used for consciousness.

The initial intellectual awareness has now created a prison of expectations and woe betide any person or animal that doesn't conform, or plant that is not useful to ensuring warmth and fluidity.

Sustainability of planetary resources, sun, warmth, water, and values such as freedom of movement become an ever increasing demand on the mind whilst the mind is hell bent on supplying the body with the essentials first noted.

But that desire will pass, slowly or in the blink of an eye, so consciousness is an option for those fed up with awareness.

I quote "radiance, transparency, absence" It may be attractive to be radiant and promise the future, or better to be transparent and alow other to devise thier own future, but what would it be like to give up all power and be absent.

Consider a resource such as an apple tree, ok not very warm but not ice and sweet and juicy, who would take of the fruit of the tree. But do you radiate the fruit? Do you pick more than you can eat and give the excess to others, and shine, or do you take only want you want to eat and leave others to make their own selection of delights. But if it's to be sustainable then take nothing, be absent from the pickings.

From the sun to the invisible space and consciousness. As logic infers, what is cannot not be. Immortality is a property of consciousness and devoid of matter and energy. Matter and energy are the foci of awareness.

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I may feel the pain of others as I can empathise through logic, but logic tells me also that there is no sustainable way of relieving pain. Being aware of suffering there is a temptation to use it to enhance the future by trying to limit the cause, as if there would be no offset somewhere else. How many rabbits have to die to keep one cat alive. Matter or energy it's all the same, the sun is not the saviour more the devil in disguise ~ a really big rabbit to feed billions of cats for billions of years until the big rabbit in the sky dies.

If there is a value indicated by logic, the message, is the mind has to transfer focus away from unsustainable resources no matter how warm and loving it feels and go beyond the future to the present.

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So it it were a tree as so many philosophies portray let's have a look.

The root of awareness is shocked at birth as the mind turns to Warmth, Fluid, Smell, Taste, Sound, Light. Only the first two Warmth and Fluidity are deemed essential the others are tools for the awareness.

The mind has automatic options in terms of heat, the most important 'essential' radiation or close contact with an energetic body. The body reacts quickly to overheating by moving away if possible.

When the essential are acquired the mind can drift away from awareness and look at itself, what it does and how it does it and why, yet never is there a permanent answer. There can be no beginning to immortal consciousness, no objects to be aware of, no time to interrupt the feeling of being,

If the mind is a tree rooted in awareness then consumption is the only future, however if the mind uses logic, a sustainable resource all is not possible as in the future will tell but the all is and the mind will open to the the eternal.

As this opening is a path it can allegorised as the branches of a tree wherein that the focus is not to feed the tree but to free the roots from the binding of the future.

To find the qualities of consciousness, such as immortality, needs be to leave this earth either \slowly or in the blink of an eye. What will be found exists here and now, just look at yourself your spirit cannot die if your soul acquires immortality.

Assertion
Those being with intent assert their presence by some sort of conflict. With vegetation, easily seen in trees, they reach up for warmth and light and own for security and water. Even as seeds they have the same basic drives. That they reach out horizontaly to maximise their consumption is purely and extended expresion of thier outward reach.

Animals have similar assertions and warm, light, security and water are sought for consumption. With homo spaiens it has been argued that their is another reach, that for knowledge, knowledge of what is still debateable and is often brought back to the knowlkedge of how to aquire more security in the basic desire of stabilty for water, air, warmth, food and most often a nest not just for storage of food sand water but for procreating what is unargubaly a very vulnerable offspring.

Conflict
There is little desire to expand on conlfict but suffice it to say that plants do not actively conflict with other plants despite thier competition for resources. Animals on the other hand move towards and away from conflict as a primary course of action.

Appeasement
This is where animals and more especially homo sapiens will contribute to the group exploiation debilitaion of other cretaures, vegetation and inanimate elements when as individuals they deem themselves to weak to survive and co-opertate in the exploitaion of resoucres for a group gain.

This appeasement is all so often seen as a good things as it enhances the surviaval of the specific actors.

The seemingly benign appeasement in a cultivation of crops for consumption, wedding out unwanted palnts and promoting those deemed more suitable to consume. It is not just palnts that are culktivated. Politics is a way of cultivating other people.

As with husbandry, the control of animals for consumption, so there is control of mankind. This is intiially a fmaily custom but as a child grows they have desisions to make. Can they feel secure in exploiting their family or does it seems better to widen the resource?

More recently in the richer climates a person may be confident enough to venture to strange lands to exploit, that is foreign lands populkate by peoles of differing cistoms, but having the same basic assertions. Finding a group or company to co-operate with becomes essential to survival once the nest has been flown.

More often than not a quasi righteouness is used to persuade people to follow a self satisfying aim, to be not just accepted but prestinf as having exceptional knowledge. This knowledge is then further expressed through argunents, condiitons and comforts that evoke compliance.

Yet as individuals, at least ir terms of having the individual ability to question, and separate facts from truth there is no reason the continually appease customs. Conflict then becomes a resource in appeasment. It is the great weight of appeasement that carries the greatest conflict and doing the right thing is clearly not the right thing.

In a world of action appeasment means supporting group action intent on its survival via consumption and assertiveness.

The A, B and C of this
Before groups of people conspire, to use each other to exploit a resource unavailable to each individual, the manipulation of another is by intimidation :- the fear of violence. This is basic animal instinct, survival at any cost.

Once individuals agree to work together to add more force to a greater obstacle, there arises hierarchy, administration and order based on the threat of even greater violence and now the added incentive of torture for non compliance. Force within the group is now a permanent instrument to ensure compliance for the so called greater good. Let us not invest in the idea that compliance is a humbling experience and shows a spiritual awareness; that's often what those in the admin section of the group promote.

Once a group is formed to exploit some magical resource hidden from the individual there becomes a hierarchy of fear and laziness. The more invested in the administration the greater the fear dished out to those in the group who do the work that each in the group is supposed to benefit from. The idle adim group actually demand a greater part of the looting as they wish not only to feed there bloated ego but to feed their policing network, further reducing the actual real workforce.

By now almost every individual is hooked into a role in an ever growing community

The way out of this corrupt continually creeping consumption is to reduce group exploitation, or as it is so nicely termed: co-operation.

The reduction in the administration is an obvious outcome, but those lazy bastards who use admin to make ends meet will not easily give up their power trip, they will find reasons to form groups on the basis that it is for the greater good. Being without a group or two to belong to is a scary place to be for those who see them selves as administrators of great ideas.

The furtherance of religion is the most outstanding, but nationality, capitalism and consumerism are now arguably more popular. Once the fear of being unable to escape the mob is set, almost everyone will buy the new line.

Some of the new lines up for snorting are (the anti-national, one world party) (the anti-capitalist, rent a mob) (the save the world for later, campaigners) and the (new age religion, buy my talisman and incense party)

One thing they all have in common is their reluctance to chop their own wood and grow their own food. They often resort to simple arguments hoping to defend their delinquent position. Often it's, 'I couldn't do that'. What? couldn't chop wood, couldn't grow food. They just don't want to leave their cushy number of selling fuel, food, accommodation, trinkets, money and most importantly themselves or at least their ideas.

Yeap! it's all to easy to listen to the music or better still join the band and hope someone else will listen and be swayed to pay the artists. So don't come to me with your bleeding heart, but a cut or scratch from manual labour I'm only too happy to tend if it gets you back to the fields where you can chop more wood until you can live happy in the coldness of reality.

Feeling left out in the cold for not being a part of the community of consumers has encouraged me to learn to turn my back on the sun and face the darkness of life immortal rather than the promise of a future warmth in the continuing bloodbath..