There's hardly been a day I haven't wanted to cry
but the years have to keep the tears from my eyes
and though my conversations are just a pack of lies
each and every moment I tell myself that's just fine

There's hardly been a day I didn't want to die
There's hasn't been a moment I haven't wanted to cry
There's hasn't been a day I haven't felt I have to lie
There hasn't been a moment I don't pretend that all is fine

So when you see me smiling it just the face of strain
and if you hear me laughing it's just my way of hiding pain
for nothing I've encountered has given me much hope
not sex or meditation nor any cosmic dope

I hope you see your freedom is not down to what you do
but one day you'll have a moment that will safely carry you
to a place of no beginning that newer has to end
a place where each and everyone is each other's only friend.