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My turning vegetarian was undoubtedly a major change. I was confronted with the idea one day that I was asking a bit much from a being of higher conciousness and greater compassion when I clearly had none for those animals of lower concious awareness and hence were vulnerable to my exploitation.

The argument was sound, there I was in The Palace of Peace, the main meeting place in London for The Divine Light Mission, playing the game that I wanted the Knowledge of God. It was going to be revealed to me by the Grace of the then 14 year old Guru Maharaji.

The argument was sound I was asking for grace from an alleged superior being yet did not act gracefully towards of those animals deemed inferior, hence their exploitation.

I took up the challenge, not to get the Knowledge but as if conciousness was to exist in an ever joyous life it could not do so at the expense of the kiling of anther animal.

This was and still is not an attempt to avoid people,as much as this can sometimes be essential. The concept was to avoid causing harm to others. This is no doubt due to the realisation, albeit mostly subconscious, that I am so weak that cannot survive alone and need all the help I can get.

Well all the help I can get and competition were two obvious stressy issues. I'm not a big strapping lad so competion was out and my long-sightedness did not lead me to co-operated very consciously or efficiently.

My foray into developing my conciousness, needing a woman, let me to a drug enhanced ability to question my lack of care. The lack of care surely being a turn off for any prospective mate.

This led directly to me being a vegetarian. Details to follow

I'm intent on avoiding the stress of having to be in control. Applying this is fraught with conflict as I have to control myself and fend of those that desire to control me. Those are predominantly other humans in my domesticated existence but applies to other animals too.

The underlying conflict is my desire to survive at the expense of whatever I deem acceptable in an instant.

The rest of this blog heads up areas of work and the will to preserve integrity.