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In trusting someone there is an explicit expectation of love and loyalty for instance. However in trusting another there is an inherent polarity and so the apparent lack of love and loyalty can be disappointing and frustrating. Dependent upon local culture the method, the resolution, or failure to resolve, may be expressed in anger, rudeness, blame and/or violence. These expressions although often directed at the 'other' party can be turned upon the self, through lack of self esteem.

A process of turning the mind to developing consciousness, can be recognised in challenges and changes to the above polarised view of trust and expectations.

First the mind will realise it's own part in all feelings and outcomes, and develop a will to reduce, with a view to end, all incrimination's of others. No one is to blame for how I feel.

Secondly logically I cannot blame myself as I am a person also and if no one is to blame that includes me.

Meditations and austerity can drastically reduce the amount of expectations and yet they feed the intellect in challenges by the willfulness to reduce the consumption, karma and cause and effect and blame and do not in themselves reduce stress. They are just a sign that the process is in hand.

As the will grows in finding alternatives to exploitation and blame love is an optional process, and yet one difficult to grasp given the history of cause and effect.

However the sheer weight of the mind challenging the notion of blame and expectation leaves little option but to accept the place of being, that I am where I am.

As I generally accept my own responsibility for all I think, feel and do; so I have a choice to blame or not to blame. It becomes a game. A game that soon becomes boring as I know there is no logical benefit in doing so and just uses resources that may be otherwise utilised or left as a pristine resource, like the notion of a waterfall hidden away in some forested valley.

The change to loving myself is the basis of loving others, and I find myself progressing along this ancient path.

I have infinite space to play this out and I see how I think to counter my education, of cause and effect and blame. If I blame anyone, including myself, it is just a game. So I laugh at myself when I do, which can be embarrassing, but at least the blood flows and I don't get so uptight. I can see the water flowing and I intend to let it flow without even taking the smallest glimpse of the life in it's mist or the love in it's midst.

The process is clear. My expectations are clear, my will is resolved.
Remove expectations of others and stop blaming them.
Stop blaming self
Love self
Love others

Conciousness

If there can be such as an immortal consciousness, that is one that is independent of a resource whether energy or space then there can be multiple.

The soul could be the space, although not exclusively that is occupied by a particular consciousness not to imply that such a space has any boundaries.

The intellect is that function or set of logic that defines the soul as independent of the body of time. As there can be no analysis in or of the present moment neither can the present provide any resource such as a solution.

That part of the intellect that uses time doe not so much resolve foreseen problems or at least appearing to do or attempt to, but rather, through it's inevitable failure to sustain even the most simple body.

The body consumer has a limited being as it depends upon other limited resources. The mind which uses logic to for growth and security in this killing field knows quite well the futility of absolute answers to any question, such as sustainability and morality.

The Buddhists with a general pattern of non-violence argues that it is not good to kill as every creature has a soul, not that I agree that such is an overriding concern. The Buddhist may eat of an animal that has been offered them for a) it was not their consciousness that did the killing and b) thy do not wish to insult their host.

Well consciousness does not kill and yet the body does, whether it was another body and mind that did so is not excuse for this body and mind to be complicit.

There was an example where some monks were wanting/hoping/praying for some westerners to visit and kill the mosquitoes around the tree they sat under for shade.???

The Jains in a similar strain tend towards non-violence but take several steps further. Many are vegan and will not take from animals, some will sweep the roads before they place a foot others wear face masks so s not to breath in small creatures and filter water from the wells and return any lifeforms.

The Jains do not have intellectual absolutes. In fact they have a logic which has seven functions. That whatever seems to be also seems not to be and indescribable.

However the same failure of conscientiousness fails in that Jains will you other to do business with.

Still how not to be complicit given that there can be no absolute resolution to problems.

The process I seem invited to indulge is an active merging of the body's mind, orientated to consumption and the logic that consciousness has to be immortal.

So it is that I use similar arguments as the Jains, accepting that as there can not be an absolute answer or truth that the best use of the mind is to perform simple functions such as growing food manually, slowly and being aware of the destruction the body relies upon. Minimising such the killing spree is a step not towards an impossible goal but one towards peace of mind. A peace that can only be transcended at death. For peace is not the goal.

That this has been written at all is a part of my culture, my family. The pattern that proceeds this is both logic and imagery. Which of these predates is arguably logic the pattern of which is image. That chronologically this is invoked is a sure sign that the argument is only relative.

My first consciously outward thinking was wanting a family, extending my culture, communicating who I am and securing my being in the wider world.

After I took LSD I saw community as all and language was a problem as it was a product of limited and limiting culture. Logic could be a far better be a tool of communication that would transcend tribes and nationalities.

Then one day I saw around a young maiden, who had dropped out of art school, images that said more than words, yet contained patterns of logic. So my attention turned to she. My desire was based upon my understanding of how I was to love unconditionally yet deep within was my own deception; for I wanted a woman for family and an artist for expression.

Consciously we made love to express the knowledge of infinite ability and the lack of fear of what the future may hold. In other words we were more interested in our own abilities to deal with and dismiss any current fears.

However with the child's vulnerability came increasing concern to earth in the form of family and animal. So I turned my mind more to animal culture. That I had spent enormous effort in reducing the animal consumption and trying to distance myself from it there was a constant battle to minimise the use of consumables. Less a child of the uni-verse.

From a young animal that is dependent upon so much a desire for independence grows. Logically any dependence must be discarded but this takes effort and in this journey many steps will be taken. The closer to freedom the less steps there are, obviously, but it's seeing the finite number of steps that is encouraging.

Some may take the path of compassion through vegetarianism but if they think eating meat is evil and of the devil then they are only beginning the first step. It is the recognition that the evil is something to pass through and not circumvent. Dening that I am the source of evil would not help me see the next step. I need not indulge in any specific evil or up the anti, it is more than enough to see the continuing fear and subsequent subjugation I inflict all around to see that I have to step out of this macabre consumerism where I am also subjected to fear.

The demons that appear around me are reflections of those within, they are not my enemy but guides to the soul. The demons are jokers testing my resolve, temptations you may call them, they do no harm for they are spirits and not material consumers of this world.

Once the demons are in their place the inner sanctuary comes into view and here and there a clear path leads to immortal harmony comes into view. Indulge this view as you can as it brainwashes the dependencies.

There are many souls, carrying their demons on the path, they are jokers laugh at them little and with them a little longer, they are after all your friends and your family.

Behind the apparent sanctuary wall there is activity alike that which has been known since the consuming side of nature emerged. The wall is only the souls struggle with the demons. It is real and a solid obstacle but it is not of this world and is not made of bricks or quantum matter. Yet within the activities appear to be acts of this world.

It is the activities glimpsed that indicate the next step to take and it would be foolish of me to show you, whom I do not know, those activities I have seen, for I am not aware of your path and my visions may be misleading to you, even though you will find them were you to look.

For the priest can support your activity but not guide it, the guiding priest shall continually fail and sadness will be the priest's next demonic guide.

A long long time ago when fruit was the embodiment of karma free consumerism, which it still can be, to those whom the soul of all nature is within, I met a priest. Formally a monk the priest renounced his vows feeling it would be better to walk amongst those people who sought a soul as a refuge from their animal desires. This priest ordained me into what was then the Universal Life Church. A simple structure that enabled anyone of the enlightenment minded to define their karma as would the Buddhist Bodhisattva in that karma still dictates that other souls should be cared for.

Not that I now agree in the same manner, nor am i sure I ever did, but the priest saw that I did whether I admit such to myself is irrelevant. As I do not admit I could not put myself forward for ordination: to become a carer of souls. Yet if by caring for souls it is understood to be non-interference yet to help when asked and it applies to all animals, plants, rocks and dust then a priest I am happy to be.

But language is all important. I see no soul in enabling another consumer to consume, yet if such a creature is to meditate on their destruction then meditating by abstaining is welcome and such indicates an awareness of a developing soul. Here a priest can find comfort in company.

The problem with campaigns is two-fold in that there is a) an attempt to enlist other humans into b) some questionable co-operative action.

Viewing from a few organic, predominantly 'foody' perspectives:

1. there is the person that eats organic food for their health who does little campaigning but support the production and distribution of organic food.
2. there is the person who care about the environment, as a) they live in it and b) so do other people who deserve the same respect, more likely to campaign under 'the greater good' banner
3. there is another, the person who a) sees health as a passing phase, as all will die no matter what is consumed, but better not to bring it on by eating questionable food, and b) do not want to mess up the environment they dwell on, which clearly means not messing it up for the others that I depend on and c) organic has a sense of freedom which I imagine all living things want, else why grow and procreate.

Yet in the third situation campaigning is a poison to be avoided, it sets one against the other on a war like footing. vegetarians and moreso vegans fit into group 2.

But if people had more of the last sentiment they may work more at growing their food and not challenging others on how they get from birth to death and to consume to a preset argument.