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Is it: abnormal use or abominable use

abuse (n.)
(Earlier in Middle English was abusion "wicked act or practice, shameful thing, violation of decency" (early 14c.), "an insult" (mid-14c.).)

abuse (v.)
early 15c., "to misuse, misapply," from Middle French abuser, from Vulgar Latin *abusare, from Latin abusus "an abusing, using up," past participle of abuti "use up," also "misuse," from ab- "away" (see ab-) + uti "use" (see use). Of sexual situations from early 15c., but originally incest, homosexuality, prostitution, etc.; meaning "to misuse sexually, ravish" is from 1550s. Specifically of drugs, from 1968. Related: Abused; abusing.

ab-
a formal element occurring in loanwords from Latin, where it meant “away from”: abdicate; abolition.
Also, a-, abs-.

Origin:
< Latin ab (preposition and prefix) from, away, cognate with Greek apó, Sanskrit ápa, German ab, English of1 , off

None of the above seem to fill much of my understanding. One thing it is,is a type of use. Three types of abuse that are frequently noted are ecological, human and animal.

Recognition of animal abuse and more so environmental abuse lag chronological that of human abuse, yet the ecological version is currently more news worthy as it affects large areas of the planet and millions if not billions or all of mankind. That the acknowledged destruction covers other animals is of little consequence when we are destroying the air we breath and water we drink, so let's not dwell on the abuse as environmental and consider human abuse, the one we recognise in our youth.

Page 2: Personal abuse and self abuse
Page 3: Not down to my hands.
Page 4 The measure of abuse
Page 5: The daily dish

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In early 1978 An left and all but disappeared in London

In that year and the following I embedded the importance of trees. I went to London hopefully for some reconciliation with An at least so I could see my two sons. This turned out to be fruitless, I only saw Tiriel and Jiva three times and An was obviously too disturbed to let me near her or them.

I lived through the winter as I had been accustomed in wearing only unbleached linen and wearing no shoes. I would sit at night under a poncho I had made in 1972 with An and never use electricity or wood etc. for heating.

I had decided that the universe was not for burning and I would just have to toughen up and sit out the winter. Eventually I would fall asleep.

After a fruitless year and a half of waiting to An to make some allowances on my seeing Tiriel and Jiva I decided that I should go somewhere warmer for a while and get out of An's hair, maybe then she would be more relaxed.

I have saved £1504 pounds and thought I would cycle off to Europe,maybe Africa and could find or help set up a community, which may be acceptable to An and she could bring herself to live near me without the threat of me wanting to renew our relationship.

All this was a miserable failure, but after another year and a half on my own, my credentials of being fruitarian, bound to the air and not the killing fire the spiritual nature of abstaining from the act of destruction was a corner stone of my lifestyle.

Four concepts arose that encouraged the next phase

a) Raw food of the proper type was arguably healthier
b) Food itself was being destroyed and no doubt like animals had an future of survival if I didn't interfere.
c) Fruit was the only food that could be eaten without interfering with the ability to grow and develop
d) Other resources were not used to cook them nor was the ground, the home of many, destroyed in the cultivation of fruit.
In 1976 our second son Jive was born. An had been a fruitarian during pregnancy and was arguably lighter at birth that before,but Jive was healthy. I did learn much later that An had been sneaking off whilst in Tavistock to eat bread or cake or something:)

You can see here the extension has now rapidly gone from grace to animals to plants, basically to every living thing.

There was a phase, after An had left when I was in London eating fruit thrown out at the markets, not due to lack of finances, but out of concern for the furher expolitaion humans inflicted by wasting so much

Now the vegan issue had settled in, food and nutrition became a major job, well having a child was more likely the principal motivation on a daily basis. So it became clear that raw food was more nutritious.

By the end of 1975 An,Tiriel and I were eating raw food, of course Tiriel had little say in the matter.

Prompted by macrobiotics, some months after being vegetarian I came across information that clarified that cows milk was not the best food for my son Tiriel. It was clear that An and I were still content to steal from cows and that rather than go for the 'better' option of using goats milk we decided to give up exploiting animals completely. We didn't consider it a vegan lifestyle choice as neither of us and heard the word, until a week or two later.

The decision to avoid using animal in any form was a development of grace, not a form of compassion or of outstretching to save animals. There was and still is on my part no inclination to be a political vegan and work to save animals from their fate but to ensure I do as little as I can that interferes with their existence.

'it might be considered evil to cause animals pain, to rob them of their milk, to steal their eggs like thieves'
'I don't believe in joy, I don't believe in sadness - they are both the same. So when I hear good news, it's the very same as bad news.'
Abu al-Alaa al-Maarri (973-1057)